a little about how i have been?

My last blog was well...depressing. But, i had a great talk with Deidra and it helped alot:) I am trying to stop cussing once again and whoa its not easy! I am really trying though, ha funny thing, i'm pretty sure everytime i try and quit i say "i'm really trying though".lol

Me and my nana are finally going to church! As lame as it might sound i get excited everytime i think about it! The church we are going to is church of christ so there is no music:(its definitely not what i would have chosen but it will work:) In about 3 months i will have my own car and i can choose a church to drive MYSELF to.

My dance team stuff has started up. This is my first year to be on the team so alot is new to me. And i barely know anybody, which really sucks because i don't know, i guess i'm not comfortable and don't act my krazzy self. I want to but i'm just not comfortable and i always want people to like me? I'm confusing because i dont care what people think after i start acting myself but at first when i dont know them i do? Ha. Weird i know.

My mom decided to text me after i dont know how many months we havent talked. I couldnt not reply because it was saying how much she loves me and blah blah blah so i called her. We talked for like an hour. She said she is trying to respect what i want but its so hard and she just wants to know if im okay. So i told her i would call her once every month and give her a little update. She asked for every week and i sad no thats to much, i could tell she was trying not to push but she wants to talk to me so bad. Everytime i get done talking to her i always feel so bad:(

But other than that suprisingly everything is pretty good right now.(knocking on wood). My dad is still stupid but thats nothing new.i couldn't think of anything specific to write about so i hope this satisfy's ya;)