Life

hey!

I haven't blogged in a loonnngggg time, hehe, sorry bout that! I've been busy with school &drill team. I have maintained A's and B's...mainly B's, with one C in chemistry, I just don't understand chemistry! Drill team is calm right now, football season is over for us so no more friday night games. This is the first year, but I have joined powerlifting team...huuaaaaa*flexing muscles*hehe. It is definitly HARD, but hopefully it will get me toned up:)

Anyways, lately I have really been thinking about my life and what I want to do with it. I know what I want to do, but there are SO many things I want to do, I feel like I wont be able to ever do them all:/ First of all you all know, or most of you, that my dream is to become a traveling christian motivational speaker, and to get to speak at something big for teen girls, like revolve tour. IF I can't do that I want to be a psycologist, for a sexual abuse place, and for teen girls mainly. Part of me feels like i'm just not smart enough to get a degree in psycology.Also, I want to go along with Missionairy's to like Africa and help people over there.

Of course I want to graduate college, part of me wants to go to tjc(junior college near me) and live at home for two years, then transfer to abiliene christian. BUT i have to graduate high school first! I'm not worried about my grades or credits, its just that dang TAKS test! I take it this year for the last time, if i don't pass it i wont walk across the stage:(very nerve racking!Another part of me wants to just move right after graduation just so I can get out of this house and have my own freedom. The smart side of me knows that would be kind of dumb, because I could save money for college or whatever else living at home for two years.

After college I want to move to Nashville. Never been there but have always dreamed of it, plus I would have more opportunity there then here. It's about an 8 hour drive from where I live, it would make it hard for me to come see fam often.

There are so many things going through my mind about my future it's ridiculous!
I know i just need to relax and put it in God's hand, its just so hard to do!



p.s. one of my biggest worries is growing up and being a cat lady!haha